Scraps.

I've been thinking. Different stuff. About all kinds of things.
I've come to a conclusion. I've grown up, or rather changes quite a bit in the recent past. I don't know that I want the same things I always thought I wanted.
As of right now my motivations are selfish and I don't care if there's something wrong with that. I'm ready to do what I do and be successful for me.
I'm very specific. I have rules that I follow and I prefer for people close to me to know them and respect them.
I like to be doing something. I used to lie in bed for most of the morning on Saturdays, now if I'm not asleep or reading, I'm not in bed.
I have an easier time recognizing what's important to me.
I've defined what a friend is to me. If you don't fit in that definition then adjust or I might start ignoring you.
I don't smile as much as I used to. It's not because I'm unhappy. I'm really happy to be me, but it's a happiness with myself. Inward happiness. I don't have to express it all the time and it's not dependent on other people, so I don't need them to know whether or not I'm happy.
So, that's how I would describe myself in this moment. Not that any one will know, but it feels pretty good to write it out.

Some quotes that make for fun times.

"You're killing me Smalls!"
"Scruffy-looking nerf herder"
"Made in China"
"You are one sad strange little man." (cut it short and insult uncle bob. long and he insults everybody else. What shall it be?)
"You..... IDIOT!" (any particular number of dots for that?)
"This statement is false"
"We must get drunk immediately"
"STUPID FAT HOBBIT, YOU RUINS IT!"
"Be excellent to each other"
"Party on dudes!"
"She just likes me for my body."
"GREAT GOOGLY MOOGLY"
"To go crazy, nuts, insane, bonzo, no longer in possession of ones faculties, three fries short of a happy meal, WACKO."
"He's a semi-aquatic egg laying mammal of action..." (what is that from)
"carbonated life forms."
"It's like a balloon with S's"
"Tubby tustard!" (Or anything else from teletubies)
"Oh goodness. Look at my wrist. Gotta go."
"That's the plan. Rule the world. You and me. Any day."
"What a crazy random happenstance." (Ok, or anything else from Dr. Horrible)
"Maybe it's Maybelline.
"It's ok Pluto. I'm not a planet either."
"I sing in the car."
"Look. I killed it for you." (Coupled with a picture of a flower of course.)
"Now let's see whether his plantar fascitis comes back!" (Thanks for saying something ridiculous on facebook uncle bob)
"ADOS: Attention Deficit Oooohhhh...Shiny."

"There's bad news about Tary."

"No, seriously. It's my armpit."
"It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak up and remove all doubt."
"It does not do to leave a live dragon out of your calculations."
"HOT CRUSTACEAN BAND!"
"I'm the leader. I'll say what it is....It's a little old cricket bug."
"I'm at least five years older than her and in college"
"I miss video games....I miss my mom."
"It's got a good beat and you can dance to it."
"Bond. James Bond."
"Gordon's alive."
"A horse is a horse of course, of course."

I am like unto a puzzle because...

-I'm not easy to understand.
-There are many different aspects of who I am. The different parts of my personality are only there to contribute to the whole.
-Some people enjoy me and some people don't.
-You can finally get all the pieces together and then it will all fall apart again.
-The more time you spend with me the better the outcome.
-There is a solution to my problems, but it may not always be the first idea.
-Make a small mistake and it might turn into a big one if you don't fix it soon enough.
-I live in a box.
-I'm utterly puzzling.


Come to think of it, I haven't met a single person who is not a puzzle. We're all puzzles, hooray!
Talking, thinking breathing puzzles that is.
Which leads me to...
...I am not like a puzzle because..
-I can make my own choices. I don't have to allow myself to be manipulates.
-I'm not flat, in any sense of the word.
-The picture I create is frequently something people don't want to see.
-I'm not bounded by edges and corners. I can be whoever and whatever I want to be.

Here's the Truth About Me.

Ok, well only part of the truth.
I believe in true love. I believe that there are real life Disney Princess stories out there. Problem is there's a big fat BUT in the middle of all that.
I always imagined that my life was one of those princess stories. I can't even begin to explain how I thought I was Ariel or I was Pocahontas. No, I wasn't pretending to be them. I was them.
Then, there's life. It happens to everybody, including me. I continued living life and my princess story until...
...Until I remembered to think. No experiences I've had make my life seem like a story book. In facet, it's all far from that.
Here's the truth. I have a gut feeling that I'll never find true love, never get married, never finish my princess story. Good news is, I'm super fine with that. I actually am in love with the idea now. I'll be single. Engineer by day, dance teacher by night, world traveler. Maybe I'll live in a loft apartment with lots of open space and decorate it really cool.

Things to do in the next two weeks.

yeah ok. so my list of things to do in the next two weeks.
1. Work on plot to take over world. Initiate Step G.
2. Homework. yuck.
3. Be obedient and a peacemaker for molly Mormon badge to further my taking over the world.
4. Work, earn money, remember to deposit check instead of leaving it in Butterfly chair.
5. Something else, but it's a secret.

My sisters are really messed up.

End of story.

Ok, not really.
Tary has been sticking a hair clip up her nose and then in Jaci's hair. Tary's afraid it fell in her pants...and they really can't sing.
Tary edits pictures, but they don't turn out so cute She thinks they do. Don't tell her I said they don't. of course, since nobody reads this nobody will tell her.
I don't even know what they're doing now, but it's late and they're being really loud now. And moaning a song. Moaning, for real,
Oh wait, somebody's reading it....it's just those two again being obnoxious.

Here is comes. To PrettyBlondeLady and the rest of...whoever in the snapple reads this thing.

1. Learn some texting etiquette.
2. "Well YOU don't have a cell phone" should never ever ever ever be an excuse. N-E-V-E-R.
3. Don't limit your friends.

Funny, but not so.

"This was still America when I woke up."
At first this was amusing because I defaulted to the idea that he's right. This place not being America? Well that's absurd.
Finding fault in a professor though, that's even more amusing.
To be honest, I don't think this is America anymore. Is this a nation that our founding fathers would be proud of? I'm not so sure it is. No, I'm not basing this on politics or the economy. I don't pretend to know enough about that to criticize it. No, I'm talking about common courtesy, etiquette, manners for crying out loud people! This is one thing we could fix on the individual level and yet, we don't. WHY NOT?!
Because. That's why.